WELL HERE WE ARE A WEEK LATER AND STILL HANGING IN THERE. I THINK TODAY IS THE FIRST DAY THAT IVE HAD A HARD TIME AND REALLY MISSED TOM. I ALWAYS MISS HIM IN THE SENSE OF HIM NOT BEING HERE BUT IM OK AND GET THROUGH IT BUT TODAY IT FINALLY HIT ME! THE PRESSURE I GUESS IS WHAT HIT ME! THE IDEA OF BASICALLY BEING A SINGLE PARENT FOR THE NEXT 15 MOS HAS REALLY BECOME A REALITY. BELLA HAS BEEN TESTING ME IN EVERY WAY SHE KNOWS HOW AND HAS BEEN HAVING ACCIDENTS AND HIDING THEM. A BIG PART OF THE PROBLEM IS SHE TALKS TO TOM ABOUT HER FEELINGS AND GOES TO TOM WHEN SHE HAS ACCIDENTS AND HES NOT HERE FOR THAT SO I KNOW SHES ACTING OUT CAUSE THERE ISNT A WAY FOR HER TO EXPRESS HER FEELINGS. I WISH I KNEW HOW TO MAKE HER TRUST ME MORE AND WANT TO TALK TO ME BUT I JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO DO THAT. ELENA IS STILL REALLY CLINGY AND HER ASTHMA HAS BEEN A LIL WORSE EVERYDAY. IM GUESSING ITS THE ALLERGIES CAUSING EVERYTHING ELSE TO ACT CRAZY. THE HOUSE HAS ALSO BEEN A CHALLENGE WITH KEEPING IT CLEAN! BELLA SEEMS TO MAKE ENOUGH MESSES FOR LEN, LULU, ZEPPELIN AND I. THIS IS A REALLY PESIMISTIC SOUNDING BLOG...I REALIZE THAT BUT I THINK THIS IS THE BEST WAY I KNOW HOW TO BLOW OFF STEAM RIGHT NOW!
P.S. I THINK THIS ONE MIGHT BE A BOY....HMMM???
P.S. I THINK THIS ONE MIGHT BE A BOY....HMMM???
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See you didn't think you could keep up with a blog, but you are!! You write more than I do! And it helps you blow off stem! If want an actual person call any time!
Hang in there girl! You know that I am here and you can call anytime, my phone rings 24 7. As for the girls, it is going to be a time of adjustment, hang in there. You might see if Bella wants to draw a picture for Tom when she is missing him and help her send it to him, or she can tell you what to write for her to send him a letter. Your doing great! :)
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